Thoughtful Thursday – 2015 New Year’s Brain Dump

Hello Wonderlanders!

Happy New Year!  I hope that everyone starts the new year in good health, and with a fresh start.  Not that you can’t have a fresh start on any other day, but to be cliche, new years are always something exciting.  This post is more like a collection of multiple vignettes from this week that snapshot my thoughts and emotions.  I’m really worried about spamming my subscribers’ inboxes, so I try to collect these.  Eventually when I get better at this coding thing and making everything work, I’ll create an option for people to only receive one newsletter a week.  Count that as a goal.  😉

Since I’ve utterly failed 3/5 days this week to keep to my posted schedule, I’ll be attempting to use the theme for next week.

It’s getting closer to the time for me to move back to the suites and I always get moodier and more anxious when I do so.  This break was, for the most part, relaxing.  But it was overshadowed by anxiety and moodiness, and fights with my mom, and spurts of inspiration among other things.

Nostalgia – My Mom

I love my mom, and we’ll probably never see everything eye to eye, and as crazy as I think she is at times, she’ll always be my mom.  I listen to the advice she gives with a grain of salt, because I know it’s good advice, but I’m stubborn and I’ve got to touch the fire to learn that it really burns.  She knows this too, and she laments that I’m not like my oldest brother who listened to almost everything she said.  But I’ll be okay.  Because I’m different from them.  My oldest brother, in my most recent birthday card wrote,

” One thing I’ve always admired about you is tenacity – you pursue what you want and don’t back down.”

I don’t think I’ve ever quite realized it’s called tenacity.  I’ve always called it sheer stubbornness to my mother’s despair, and her graying hair is evidence of it.

Spoiled. Unproductive.

This week, I wanted to do a lot.  And I did very little of it. I had ideas for what I was going to write, but then I didn’t follow through.  I got sucked into this mood of neediness and insecurity and wanting to spend time with my parents even though I wanted to be away from them already.  My time slipped through my fingers like grains of sand and very little was accomplished.  I still owe my penpals their letters, and my dear dad got me stamps.  He always spoils me in little ways, sometimes behind my mom’s back like when he comes to my suite at 6:30 in the morning to drop off some food for me, or to bring me my jackets because I’m freezing and it’s raining and my roommates like to keep the suite cozy at 70-74 degrees Fahrenheit.

Gifts

My mom gave me three big gifts this season.  They are also from my dad, but he doesn’t usually find out til after the bills come in.  I got running shoes from Sketchers from Costco.  This isn’t a big deal, but to me, it means a lot to me that my parents still pay for things that I can afford, especially because I know that they are financially stretched.  My mom, like my Amah (grandma in Taiwanese), likes her lipstick for when she goes out of the house.  If she forgot it in her purse or can’t find it and there’s a beauty department nearby, she’ll sometimes buy a new one.  Which is how she ends up with a small collection of them.  She gave me a really gorgeous Yves St. Laurent lipstick in what I think is their color “Fetish Pink.”  The last gift was her Michael Kors Jet Set Logo Tote in white.  Yes, she’s used the lipstick, and the tote, but it still means much to me to have them.  I’m not trying to brag.  I’m just sharing something that means a lot to me from my parents so that days down or years down the road I can look back at this to try and remember the good from all the negative.  I received many other gifts from friends and family, and they too are cherished items.

Xoxo

Allys

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Thoughtful Thursday – A Brain Dump

Hello Wonderlanders!

You probably wonder why I call you, my audience, “Wonderlanders”.   Well, I’ll admit it’s a bit of a mouthful to say, and maybe not all that original.  My blog and site is called “Allys in Wonderland” and I wanted to emphasize a philosophy of “looking at the world through eyes of wonder” for myself, and since you are reading my blog, I interpret it as you are taking a journey alongside me and living in our world of wonder.  Yes, I know, that sentence was even worse with the number of times wonder and its variations show up.  I apologize.

While I want to write uplifting things and convey it in the things I present and share, it does not always match my current frame of mind. This week has been a bit rough.  I’m back at home for the holidays and my mom and I have been incessantly arguing on and off over family matters and my brother and my concerns over her and her health and triggers for me are going off left and right.  What’s helped to keep me sane is writing and thinking of what I want to write for you guys and also obsessing over planners. More about planners will be coming soon.  I want to reiterate my appreciation for you taking the time to stop and peruse my blog.  It gives me motivation to keep on going and to write even when I’m super tired.

On another note…

Back in October, I spent almost $400 on new beauty products because I had been using the same make-up brushes and set since sophomore year of high school.  Talk about a health hazard!  It wasn’t on that many items, mainly more expensive items that I decided to invest my money into in hopes that I wouldn’t have horrendous breakouts or a badly pigmented face.  I figured if it was something that helped me with my “loving me more” goal, I should really learn to use the stuff I bought, so I did a Make-Up week Challenge with my friend Vicky.  Needless to say, we survived most of it…we may have skipped a day or two… But I’ll be sharing some of those stories in future posts.

That’s it for tonight!

XOXO

Allys

Finding Inspiration

I’m not going to lie. I read a lot. And I get a lot of ideas. But turning ideas into action? I’m horrible at it.

So to motivate myself to write continuously on this blog, I’ve come up with themes with my friends so that I have something most definitely to write about. Whether I will write on schedule, is yet to be seen, but I like to look at the bright side of things.

Before I go into my themes, I want to make it clear that the only reason I haven’t been writing since the inception of this blog isn’t because I wasn’t motivated, but because I have been busy writing up my term papers and studying and taking finals. I’m done with 1/3 of my senior year of college and the classes aren’t getting any easier. I am hoping that over my winter break I can get into the habit of staying on top of my writing so that by the time term starts, it’ll fit right in with my academic schedule. Here’s to wishful thinking!

So the themes I’ll be using as a slight guideline until further notice:

Male Crush Mondays OR Manicure Mondays (I plan on alternating these every other week.)

Tuesday Tips AND/OR Reviews (I will write these depending on what I feel like that week.)

Woman Crush Wednesday OR Wedding Wednesday (I’ll alternate these topics opposite of what’s posted on Monday. Wedding Wednesdays will be a discussion of Pinterest wedding boards I make for my friends based on what I think their style is. I have a feeling I’ll run out of friends at one point and we’ll change it to Whatnot Wednesdays, lol.)

Thoughtful Thursdays (May feature guest posts or interviews.)

Five for Friday (5 random facts about me, 5 things I like, 5 somethings that I’ll make up as we go along.)

If I’m writing Male Crush Mondays, I won’t do a Woman Crush Wednesday in the same week because I feel as if it’ll be a little redundant. And don’t worry, I don’t intend on sharing eye-candy, I’m more interested in introducing people who inspire me or that are doing great things in our world.

I apologize if this post is a bit more disorganized – I’m getting back into HTML editing and my brain’s a bit mushy from lack of sleep and studying.

I would love to hear feedback from you. Any comments, suggestions, or concerns can always be expressed below!

The Very Beginning

Welcome!  Bienvenidos!  你好!

If you’ve find my blog quite by accident, or if you did it with intent, have no worries – this is a safe place.  At least for me.  To unload the things I’ve been thinking of, the things that fascinate me, and my observations of the world at large.  You are about to embark with me on a journey of self-discovery in the midst of the toils of growing into womanhood, identity and independence. I want to see life through eyes of wonderment.

I start this blog with the intention of sharing my insights and creativity and need for organization.  I may end up discussing some hard topics, or I may have many happy posts filled with wonderment at our world.  My goal is to try and focus on the good, and not be too overly critical or disillusioned of the lives we lead, but I can guarantee no promises.

Anything I write is my own thoughts and opinions (unless noted otherwise) as I am not sponsored or affiliated to any organization at this time.

Thank you for joining me.

xo,
Allys